Leaving.

Welcome back…

To the old familiar feeling of wanting but never receiving.

I did not miss you, the parts where i’m trying my hardest yet i’m still failing.

The place where i keep thinking my heart is safest yet i still feel it falling.

The ones i live to try and prove myself to, will never be impressed.

Whereas with me, my soul forever tired and my mental state permanently depressed.

I can never catch a break, when right turns to wrong as fast one can blink.

I hate begging for things to stay good, but unfortunately it’s all i can do, because my efforts are as pointless as can be.

The inability to breath is comforting.

I welcome the dark now, made it my home.

Might as well, cause it surrounds me so often now.

I’ve gotten used to the attachment that i feel for people in my life, and the pain that comes shortly after they enter just to leave.

I can’t help but fall in love oh so easily, when he or she says the right words that catch me off guard, not catching feelings so damn hard.

I hate hurting like this, cause i hurt innocents in the process.

I don’t mean to be so distant but it’s for the best, maybe i should i make it permanent.

Good bye to this pain, to this world, to this life...to this dark shadow engulfing me whole.

-D.L.E