The Fear of Not Knowing.

It’s so difficult, you know?

When the one thing that could fix you…

Is the biggest thing that is breaking you.

Laying there talking to yourself…

Doing your best to ignore the stabbing pain in your chest.

Changing your position just to check that there’s still feeling left.

But you can feel it….all of it ..leaving you.

Your soul, once so full of life and joy...now turning to ashes and dust-covered memories in the forgotten corners of your mind.

All you can do is sit there….living with it.

The feeling of losing yourself.

Forgetting who you are...even though you never truly had the chance to discover the real you.

Did we ever really belong to ourselves?

Is happiness really an obtainable thing?

You sit there and think to yourself…

How? Why? When?

Will this be over….

Can i even do this alone?

Sometimes i guess not.

We all have hard times, the good turn to bad times; those i wish i could die times, The even worse “I WILL COMMIT SUICIDE” times, all those i can’t

and won’t keep trying, fighting, sick of all this crying times.

Life ...is not the ultimate test that we face, neither is all those things religion call sins.

You are your own true test, in many ways.

You give yourself the opportunity, the choice.

You put yourself in situations.

Sometimes not on purpose but they happen anyway.

But you gotta live with them every single day.

With the fear of not knowing how your life might change and affect you.

By: D.L.E