Love like I should

Forever ignored.

My once proud heart is broken and hits the floor.

But i’m guessing you dont even fucking care anymore.

You stopped listening a long time ago.

Did you even really want me?? Cause the only one who acts like it now is mom, And she’s not even here.

I want her and not you!!

You treat me like i don't matter as much as i should or that i’m not even good enough and that i should stop trying...and i would if i could.

The only time i get praise for what i do, is when i show you evidence and proof that i can do good.

I Can’t love like i should.

And it’s because of you.

You always put me down and out of view.

I can’t pretend like i’m okay….

And i do that every god damn fricking day.

You don’t give two shits about me even if i am your fucking kid.

I’m the one you wish didn’t exist.

I stress you out.

I piss you off.

I cause you issues but aww poor you.

You wanted kids so it's all on you.

You say everything's my fault and too look in the mirror to see the real problem. Well…

IT’S TOO FUCKING LATE!!

I’m used to you hurting me, it doesn’t affect me.

Your stupid little guilt trips.

Your screaming at me and telling me to shut the fuck up and grow up.

Well…

It’s all your fault.

Your the reason that i don’t love like i should.

Why i can’t appreciate all the good in my life because i can’t find the light. I’m not writing this because i want to fight.

I’m writing this because im done.

I cant keep fighting to fix things with someone who mentally abuses me, makes me feel guilty and like dirt. Someone who will never begin to understand exactly what is wrong because they were never really involved all along.

Same old dance to the same old stupid song.

Same story so same ending.

IM DONE. By:D.E.