secret thoughts.

I need to apologize

There has never been a good time..

I can’t explain it.. Or myself.

I am deeply sorry..

I know i’m strange, you can try to convince me but,

I will never change.

I can be crazy, don’t always make sense..

My intentions are...good?? But never the best.

I HAVE HURT PEOPLE!!

And i can’t fix that.

But people have hurt me too and i don’t hold a grudge over them for being only what they are, and that is human.

I can’t fix everything, and i hate it.

I’m not controlling, i just feel useless and horrible if i don’t try.

I know i can’t make everything better …

I try, and try, and try … until..

The day i die.

I can get annoying, and i make people mad and frustrated.

I run away from people i get attached to because i get scared that they will get bored with me.

Want not a thing to do with me.

That i’m never good enough or… even what they wanted in the beginning.

I get clingy cause i worry, i worry cause I’ve been left, and …. I was left because… i don’t know.

I wish i was not myself…

And i know that is wrong..

But maybe if i was someone else…

I would finally not feel alone.

#depression #breakingdown #hurting