Phone call

Sitting in the dark

Staring at this light up screen

Holding back my sobs and sniffling what attempts to leave.

Shaking so bad that I can barely type.

Tears scaring my cheeks, smearing bright red streaks as I wipe them away.

Scrolling through names

Trying to find help.

But I really should be alone right now.

Cause in all honesty there is no hope.

I can no longer find the light at the end of the tunnel, I coast through everyday of my life excepting the standard of "ok".

Lieing to everyone's face saying "it's fine, I am ok."

When some one offers to help it's always "no thank you, I will be ok."

But the reality of it is..

I am never fully ok.

I am always terrified

Always afraid, that I mess something up, disappoint someone.

Scared that I am never going to be enough and that i will let someone down.

D.L.E