Remedy

It’s scary, thinking that taking this little pill brings me hope I haven’t felt in years.

To finally not feel like I am trapped in never-ending darkness.

To not fear the littlest things that come with life.

It’s also frightening that this remedy could cure me of things that were tools and inspirations that I have grown fond of for so long.

I don’t want to think about how the world feels like it’s collapsing on me anymore.

That it’s once round shape morphs into a cage around me.

Its walls slowly closing in and forcing me into an enclosed windowless space full of negative energy.

I want to finally feel strong enough to punch a hole in the wall of this prison cell and break out.

I want to feel the warmth of the sun, not the cold of the dark.

I will no longer be controlled by pain and anger.

I am not afraid anymore.

-D.L.E