Thinking again

All these thoughts spiraling out of control in my head, Making me think everything would be better if I just up and left. I know I mess up, I am not perfect I just hope for the best and that you think I’m worth it. I go through something new every day, and at the end of it a new type of pain. Oh yeah, it’s so great!! To feel this numb, to not be able to tell if someone is really the one. That no matter how hard you fight to stay happy, to keep that smile on your face, ..just one small thing could make it all go wrong and erase it. But let’s face it, Happiness is an emotion… it goes through fazes It comes in and out It’s got ups and downs But instead, I find myself chasing it down, running myself ragged all over town. I put others before myself Trying to make them see why life is worth living but in the process, I don’t listen to myself because.. All the pain blocks my own advice out. This anxiety is taking over my heartbeat This paranoia is controlling my brain, But this depression... This pain... Has caged my soul… And locked me in. -D.L.E